Isn’t it funny how one meeting can turn your whole mind upside down? My mind has been spinning round and round. I know starting a business is part trial and error. I am plagued with so many thoughts about my business, what to make, how to run it and where I want to be. For all that know me well; you would remember that I always have a 5-year plan. Having short term goals and a long term plan is how I’ve done everything in my life. But sometimes the noise around me telling me what to do is distracting, emails from Etsy on how to quit my day job, grow my business, and succeed. I need to feel in my heart what I want do and having this clarity and calm in my life is essential to my being. If I don’t have inner peace, I am not fun to live with. Running and sewing bring me peace. So perhaps if I need clarity on sewing, I should go for a run!
Being a small shop affords me the opportunity to let my creativity take me where it wants to go that day. I love that my items are unique, fun and preppy. I also like to think of my style as classic 1950’s. So despite the noise around me, I will continue to march to the beat of my own band and do my own thing regardless of what the words, sounds or images of what is going on around me.
I hope I will be fortunate enough to be able to continue taking orders from small boutiques but only on a case by case basis. They are exhausting. When I work on boutique orders, my Etsy shop is neglected, I don’t get much time to run, and all other spare time is spent doing what I intended in the first place which is being a stay at home mom. When I am not adding new items daily, it is hard for my fans to know what I am up to, and I know my fans love to see all my new creations. I know I am not ready for a bigger job or additional staffing until my littlest one reaches kindergarten. But some days even with a small shop I feel like I am being pulled away from my family. Do I sew during naptime? Do I run? Do I hang out with my sweetie pie or sew? I just can’t fit it all in.
I want to thank everyone for their continued support and encouragement. I especially want to thank Liz, who encouraged me to ask myself the important questions that still need to be answered. I can’t thank her enough for her kind words, praise and thoughtful advice. These words were not the ones I mentioned spinning me round and round. I am hoping that with time the clarity and purpose that I seek will come to me and I’ll know exactly what I need to do.
My best, Jen (Wife & Mom & Designer & CEO & Hardcore Runner)